jellybean

drifting . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

2009-01-01T19:01:00.000-08:00

The biggest mistake you can make is to DRIFT apart from someone who YOU once had the time of your LIFE with,......

eyes O>O

2008-05-25T21:48:00.000-07:00

whats the most attractive thing about you????

"eyes"

you have the Most AMAZING Eyes all you have to do Iss look at sumone ,, and they Will fall for you ;)

i felt as if...

2008-05-25T21:03:00.000-07:00

you gave me love, you breathed life into me
after i found u, I've found all happiness
ever since my heart....found shelter in your eyes

"i felt as if.."I REALY LIVE , I REALY EXIST
i was a dream. I've become real for you

no more grouse i hold, against destiny
now that I've known you from so close
now that i have you. I've found a world of joy
in your eyes I've seen my self, in this world

FeAR

2008-05-13T21:25:00.000-07:00

I feel NO fear of death,
ONLY the fear of separating from you haunts me.....

do u believe in fairy tales?????

2008-02-08T22:15:00.000-08:00

Your prince isn't going to come,
Riding on a horse,
And jumping off it,
Taking your hands in his,
And sweep you off your feet.

No, not in this life.
Sorry hon, but thats the truth.

You're not going to find Mr. Frog Prince,
And with the fact that you have to kiss him,
And then magic will reverse,
And then he'll turn into Mr.
Prince Charming.

Sorry to break the news,
But thats just not going to happen.

Cinderella and her prince,
Bella and her beast,
Sleeping Beauty and her savior,
Snow White and her love,
They're just fairy tales,
They're not real,
They're unrealistic.
They are not going to happen to you.

* i wish it wud

un-beautiful,like me :)

2008-02-04T21:11:00.000-08:00

some women

are blessed with beauty
but not me
i'm un-beautiful,
i'm un-extraordinary,
i'm un-perfect,
i'm me.

i'm the star that doesn't sparkle,
a Nightingale that can't sing,
snow the color of charcoal,
a harp without its strings,

i'm an empty box of chocolate,
a chooser without a choice,
an angel without her wings,
an echo without a voice,

a captain without a ship,
an interpreter with nothing to say,
a piano key without a note,
a night without a day,

i'm a clock that doesnt tick,
an ice cream without a taste,
a mirror with no reflection,
a doll without her face,

in a strange way,
it's beautiful,
to be un-beautiful.

some women
are blessed with beauty
but not me
i'm un-beautiful,
i'm un-extraordinary,
i'm un-perfect,
but in the end
i'm perfectly un-perfect
because Im me... :)

U and me

2008-01-25T01:12:00.000-08:00

there was space,
there was distance,
there was a world of separation....

im tryin so hard to be ok

2008-01-24T19:56:00.000-08:00

errrr
i bein putting on a BRAVE face for few weeks now
you have this beautiful gorgeous girl friends around YOU.....
im trying so hard to be ok with it :)
but i HAVE to ask u a question and i promise im not gona ask u ever again
SHOULD I BE WORRIED ABOUT US ?

sumthings goin on :D :D

2008-01-23T19:28:00.000-08:00

look what has happened to me
in your memories

you are smile on my lips
and you are my complain

look what happened to me
by bringing you in my dreams

you, my darling, must have found thousands like me
yet you are the only one for me

:D mmmwaaah

LET them WALK

2008-01-08T22:53:00.000-08:00

when people can walk away from you let them walk. UR destiny is never tied to anybody .

people leave U COZ they are not joined to U.
and if they are not joined to U, U can’t make them stay. Let them GO.
it doesn’t mean that they are bad it just MEANS that their part in the STORY IS OVER.
and u’ve got to know when people’s part in ur story is OVER.

You’ve GOT TO KNOW when it’s DEAD. You’ve got to know when ITS OVER....

moment in time

2008-01-08T22:19:00.000-08:00

To the world you might be
one person,
but to one person
you just might be the world

GREAT maybe I'll be world for someone whos dat :)... someone somewhere ;)

MOVING on

2007-12-12T18:17:00.000-08:00

Sometimes in life we walk a different path, go our own separate ways and find our own lives. It will not be forever that people will do the same thing over and over again cause by then things will tend to stagnate. But the funny thing about life is when people do drift apart or part ways they don’t always find the way to go back to what it is used to be maybe because time has pass and your not anymore comfortable with what is left behind. But sometimes in life too when you do go back and reminisce what you did left behind you realize it was worth going back in the first place cause it was the one thing that made you who your are, who were there when you felt the world has turn its back on you, who push you up everytime you stumble and fall. Yes it is good to grow up and find our niche in this world cause sooner or later we will need to find that path where our life should circumnavigate but then again memories too are worth savoring every part of your journey to self discovery and contentment for without it we are an empty shell going about our life with no substance at all.
Our past do help shape what we will become someday so never do erase what is left behind in your life but mold it
well to suit what you will become someday.

make up and move on :)

2007-12-11T21:28:00.000-08:00

when things are going great with our friends, life is GOOD. when things are going not so GREAT, life can turn super-crummy, super-fast....
the truth is, even the GREATEST friendship in the WORLD will run into some bumpy spots. everyone fights with his or her friends every once in a while, whether it's a small misunderstanding or an atomic blow-up. cox our close friends mean so much to us, FIGHTING with them can make us feel hurt, angry, frustrated, and deeply sad...
my best BITCH said something ultra-mean to ME....and the first thing i did was i wrote her and AWFUL NASTY note....but later on i JUST THOUGHT OF IT HARD and HARD ...and i didnt wanna our friendship to end with a stupid fight.... i wanted my friendship to get stronger, so i put the fight behind and apologized to each other, and decided that we don't want to fight anymore.NOW it is as strong as it was before WE started fighting....

I beheld A dream, this is my only desire O.o

2007-12-09T22:00:00.000-08:00

i knew MY
prince would come
on a HORSE... :D
MY LOVE lives in
my dreams... :D

MY dreamy DUDE

2007-12-09T21:35:00.001-08:00

when he gets angry he starts showing his eyes
fighting he SMILES by Mistake
when i speak to him, i feel as though he is gonna sleep
whenever he awakes from his sleep, he looks like a MESS
he sleeps with his mouth wide open :O
he is a little ungood
he is worth getting BEATEN up
what he says and what he does "GOD KNOWS"
he climbs on the sofa and looks for the TV REMOTE...
YES he is a little different
YES he is a little wrong

BUT he Looks at my paths everyday

new life :D

2007-12-09T21:07:00.000-08:00

Silence has started huMMing
Loneliness has started SMILING
Slowly IT TOLD ME........
A new life is getting started in MY breath
These days and nights someone's shadows have been CRAWLING around....
Someone's waves around in the WIND
Whose dreams wake my eyes from my sleep...

listen to ur SELF

2007-12-05T01:03:00.000-08:00

THINK TWICE

2007-11-26T02:32:00.000-08:00

When you think others have forgotten about you; think twice because they could be
busy with their work and daily schedules.

We cross each other’s path often and it does not mean that if a person does not say hi or
acknowledge your presence it’s equivalent to you being forgotten.

Life is more than these contemplative thoughts. No one can ever be forgotten. It’s
in the mind but there’s no need for connection all the time. As long as the absent is felt it grow fonder all the time.

I wish i COULD just freeze a moment

2007-11-23T20:46:00.000-08:00

Have you ever wished that sometimes you could just freeze a moment in your LIFE, like a FRAME and look at it and say
“This is not happening to me. This is not my life…” ?

as everyone say,"everything happens for a reason".
but for me the hard part is figuring out what
the reason is behind this...

for now, I’m just lost somewhere in my own life.
I need time to adjust
but somehow
i will find myself again......:)

sWING

2007-11-22T04:44:00.000-08:00

if u find your self feeling
HOPELESS
SHITTY
GOOD FOR NOTHING
WORTHLESS
LOSER
THOUGHTLESS
PATHETIC
USELESS
STUPID
CARELESS
JEALOUS
SELFISH
BURDEN
ANNOYING
DISAPPOINTING ( and so on)

try this:-go to a playground, find a swing, and abandon yourself to a time of pure, carefree play. As you fly through the air, picture all of ur cares being swept away, yourself become freer with each pass.
..its awesome..... :)

2007-11-18T02:02:00.000-08:00

back to the girl i used to be

2007-11-18T01:51:00.001-08:00

i didn't want this....im back to who i was again....
i thought im done ...but i was totally wrong..its the beginning..there was no end after all...
i dont wanna feel shity always
but everyone make me feeel shit...
my own ones..my loved ones
my friends....

saturday morning

2007-11-16T22:13:00.000-08:00

feeling so sleepy..."yawn "yawn "...i woke up very early today.
sometimes lying in bed closing and opening my eyes ...i wonder about everything, even things that i don't have to....i go for the unexplored horizons....and sometimes looking up the ceiling with a blank mind..thats what i did today..i was totally blank but after sometime i closed my eyes .....n i felt sweaty.... i opened my eyes ..guess what my nephew off the fan........heheheh
so now im looking for this and that..running up and down here and there....I've totally forgot how sleepy i was......thanks for my little lovely rascal nephew....mwaks

what happen was......

2007-11-14T23:24:00.000-08:00

i saw HIM.....
i met him.........
i talked to him...
i chat with him...
i kissed him....
i liked him.....
i LOVED him ...
i let him......
i LOST him....

bEst Bitchs

2007-11-04T22:13:00.001-08:00

best bitchs we are ,
best bitchs we'll be,
for always forever,

U and ME!

put it in a bottle,
never let it free...

hero

2007-11-04T21:34:00.000-08:00

after thinking about it, through and through
i realized that anybody can be a hero...
just need to be strong...
in heart...
it just depends on the actions you do,
and why you do them..
anyone can be a hero..
you just need to sacrifice a bit of your
own good for someone else's.

tHe update

2007-11-03T00:17:00.000-07:00

somehow my brain has been updated..
sumthin is wrong with me...i wanna say the update thing was great, that im strong...
yeah yeah im strong....but my mind is all blank :S
i do seee the colours around me,
where before they weren't even there,
but my mind is all blank....
im angry, im hungry,im clueless,
did i live? am dead? am i accountable? did i fight? did i win?
am i done? did i make a difference?
WHO AM I?????
So exactly who am I?
im a sister,
an aunt,
and a daughter.......
dats all i remember :S
( i knw this whole thing dnt even make any sense)
O_O

bLank Mind...YawninG

2007-11-01T09:05:00.000-07:00

TSK TSK...i just don't know wat to write...
sitting here with this weird look..just staring n staring
n staring..cant figure out wat to write...
O_o its almost 3 hours now n this is all i came up with
TSK TSK.....all i did was itch my whole body head to butt, butt to toes .....i just hate the feeling ..my mind is all blank...sumtimes "YAWNING" ..im tooo sleeeepy..i don't think i can even continue (damn sleeepy with the blank mind)......""yaawning""

IM SOOO happy

2007-10-30T23:58:00.000-07:00

oh yes YES yes..im so HAPPY...

i moved on :)
im sooo happy i dont get to hear ur lies anymore..
yeappppsss im soo hapyy
cox i gota be USED to this
im so happy cox u let me luv u n im THROUGH with it now
n the best is i was so happy cox of uuuuu
n im even more n more n 1000 more happy
WITHOUT U........
la la laaa i moved on..la la laaaa m so happyyyy
la la laaaaa ...I MOVED ON.....

UMBRELLAAA....."friends" ?????

2007-10-29T00:24:00.001-07:00

i just heard UMBRELLA by Rihanna, and sooo the song is stuck in my head ! "U can stand under my umbrella, ella, ella, ella, ey, ey..." i like this song but, its not my favourite its a pretty good song n luv the lyrics......

"""when the sun shines ...we'll shine TOGETHER
"told u I'l be here forever...said i'l always be ur FRIEND
took an oath .. i'mma stick it out 'till the end
now that it's raining more than ever ......
know that we still have each other ....
U can stand under my Umbrella"""(pretendin to singout loud..heheheh)

soo to my all my bestest gals(bitchs)...my best friends....u can always count on me on everythin..i wil be standin with my umbrella n u can stand under it (n yeaps ill be singin dis song tooo..i knw my voice cracks, n its horrible...but i can sing it, u guyz jst needs ear plugs)..(hehehehehehehe)

MEeeee

2007-10-28T03:17:00.000-07:00

i FALL n i pick myself up...
i looose HOPE, yet i dream...
i'm LOST n I FIND myself again...
i CRY n i laugh through MY tears......
i believe im STRONG.....

y wedding ring should put on the FOURTH finger?‏

2007-10-26T08:29:00.000-07:00

ITS A BIG QUESTION??? y y y its 4th finger.. after alot of work n reaserch i found the best ANSWER...heheheheh
jst follow the steps CAREFULLYYY
*firstly show ur palm, centre finger bend n put together back to back
2nd, the rest 4 fingers tips to tips( jst the way on the pic)
n follow the below arrangement
*Try to open ur thumb, the thumb represent PARENTS, it can be open coz all human does go thru sick and dead. Which is our parents will leave us 1 day ........
*Plsss close up ur thumb, then open ur second finger, the finger represent BROTHERS N SISTERS, they do have their own family which is too they will leave us too .....
*Now close up ur second finger, open up ur little finger, this represent ur CHILDREN.Sooner or later they too will leave us for they got they own living to live ......
*close up your little finer, try to open ur fourth finger which we put our wedding ring, u will be surprise to find that it cannot be OPEN at all. COZ it represent HUSBAND n WIFE, this whole life u will be attach to each other .....
Thumb represent parents
Second finger represent brothers & sisters
Centre finger represent OWN SELF
Fourth finger represent your partner
Last finger represent your children

OUCHHHH MY FOOT

2007-10-25T01:09:00.000-07:00

colored X-ray of a woman's foot in a high-heel shoe.
OUCH..
OUCH......
OUCHHHHHH........OUUUUUCHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!
(do i need to explain this or will u get the picture on ur own..heheheheh
but luk at that pic...the borns almost gonna crack...tsk tsk tsk)

HUGSS

2007-10-23T22:10:00.000-07:00

its WONDROUS wat a HUG can do...:)
a HUG can cheer U when U r blue
a HUG can say a lotttt
like...i LOVE u....or geee, i hate to see u GO....or welcum bak...orrr great to see u, where've u been?...n loads more..tsk tsk even HUG can smooth a small child's pain...
all this years i didnt knw a hug means so much. :s
SOOO im stretchin my arms without delay...tryin to grab sumone to give a HUGGGG....
HEEHEEE HEEEEE

NEVER!!!!!!!

2007-10-22T20:08:00.000-07:00

i wait by the phone everyday

but u never call......?
i get ready for u to come
but u never show up.......?
i tel u important things
but u never listen......?
i say I LOVE U
but u never ANSWER.....?
i write u mail
but u never RESPOND.....?
i ask if u LOVE me, i ask if u care
but u never said anythin..never answerd me ....!!

u make me feel sick
u make me feel so lonly.......

i hate u :)